There’s a question that has been sitting with me lately, and it’s heavier than it sounds:

How much of who you are did you actually choose?

Not your favorite music.
Not your coffee order.
Not your aesthetic.

I mean the deeper parts.
The role you play in your family.
The way you handle conflict.
The voice in your head that tells you what you’re allowed to want.

Did you consciously decide those things?

Or did you inherit them?

In this week’s episode of Have a Cup of Johanny, I explore the layered psychology of inherited identity — the roles we step into without realizing they were assigned, the coping mechanisms we confuse for personality, and the survival versions of ourselves that still quietly run the show.

Because sometimes the most radical thing we can do is ask: Who would I be if I wasn’t trying to survive anymore?

The Identity You Didn’t Choose

Most of us don’t grow up exploring identity. We grow up performing it.

If you were the oldest daughter, maybe you became “the responsible one.”
If your household was chaotic, maybe you became “the calm one.”
If emotions weren’t safe, maybe you became “the easy one.”

And when those roles were praised, we mistook approval for authenticity.

But praise does not equal choice.

Many of us inherited identities like heirlooms. Passed down quietly. Reinforced subtly. Rarely examined.

You may have inherited:

• The belief that asking for help is weakness
• The belief that love must be earned
• The belief that your value is tied to productivity
• The belief that silence keeps peace

These identities were not random. They were adaptive.

They helped you survive.

But survival identity is not always the same as growth identity.

Survival Identity vs Growth Identity

Survival identity forms under pressure. It is built for protection.

It says:

• Stay small.
• Stay useful.
• Stay quiet.
• Stay agreeable.
• Stay strong.

Growth identity, however, asks something different.

It asks:

• What do you want?
• What aligns with your values?
• What feels true, not just familiar?
• Who are you becoming, not just who you were needed to be?

The tension between these two versions can feel like betrayal.

Because when you start changing, setting boundaries, expressing anger, resting, evolving, you are not just shifting habits. You are challenging a story that may have defined you for years.

And that can feel destabilizing.

The Cultural and Ancestral Layer

For many of us, identity is not just personal. It is cultural.

We inherit expectations about gender, strength, loyalty, religion, success, and even silence. We inherit narratives about what makes us “good.” About what makes us lovable. About what makes us worthy.

In my own writing, especially in The Ordinary Bruja, identity is ancestral. It is layered. It is passed down through silence as much as through story.

Marisol doesn’t choose the lineage she is born into. She inherits expectations. She inherits fear. She inherits unfinished business.

And in many ways, so do we.

You can love your family and still question the roles you were handed.
You can honor your culture and still redefine yourself within it.

Choosing yourself does not mean rejecting your inheritance.

It means examining it.

Keeping what aligns.
Releasing what confines.

When Changing Feels Like Betrayal

One of the most difficult parts of outgrowing inherited identity is the emotional backlash.

You may feel guilt.
You may feel disloyal.
You may feel like you are abandoning the version of yourself that carried everyone else.

But here is the truth:

You are allowed to evolve beyond what once protected you.

The identity that helped you survive a certain season of life may not be the identity that helps you expand in the next.

Protection and expression are not the same thing.

And awareness is not rebellion. It is maturity.

A Question Worth Sitting With

If no one expected anything from you…
If you weren’t trying to prove your worth…
If you weren’t trying to maintain a role…

Who would you be?

That question can feel unsettling.

Because sometimes we don’t know.

And not knowing does not mean you are lost. It means you are meeting yourself outside of assignment.

You Are Not Just What You Inherited

At the end of this episode, I say something that I want to leave here too:

You are not the version that survived.
Or the version that was assigned to you.
Or the one you picked when you didn’t know who you were.

You are the one who gets to choose now.

And that choice does not have to be loud or dramatic.

It can begin quietly.

With awareness.
With curiosity.
With small, intentional shifts that reflect who you are becoming instead of who you had to be.

If this conversation resonates with you, listen to the full episode of Have a Cup of Johanny where I unpack the psychology of inherited identity, survival roles, and how awareness opens the door to intentional self-definition.

Because identity does not have to be a script you perform.

It can be a story you revise.